Enjoy Yourself While You Can

It’s not exactly what you want to find in your fortune cookie when you are awaiting results from a biopsy.  Jeff texted a picture of his fortune, “Enjoy yourself while you can.” He thought, “Oh, boy.”  Daughter Kim replied, “Geez.”  Fortunately, fortune cookie fortunes do not flawlessly foretell our futures. 

One afternoon, I was reading with three-year-old Rosie when Grandpop Jeff called.  I am not sure whether Rosie heard the word “hospital” or sensed something in my tone but when I ended the call and picked up our book she asked, “We’re okay, right?”

"Yes, we’re alright.”  A fleeting thought occurred to me.  How would she take it if she saw her grandfather sick?  What would we say to her when we ourselves wouldn’t know what the future holds? 

We’re alright. 

We’re waiting. 

I was scheduled to visit my sister, Tracy, in Colorado.  Jeff and I decided there was no reason to postpone the trip and so I went.  While I was away, the biopsy results were posted online.  It had been more than a week since Jeff’s procedure.  I read the report and could now expand my vocabulary with the help of Google:  “Membranous Glomerulopathy” and “Tubular Atrophy and Interstitial Fibrosis.”  I called Jeff, prepared to share my newly acquired understanding of kidney disease.  Although I called at what I believed to be a convenient time for him, Jeff did not answer my call. 

It turns out there was a good reason for that.  Granddaughters Rosie and Penny were playing in our living room.  Son Keith was in the garage working on his classic car.  Keith yelled, “Dad!” Jeff left the girls in the house and ran to the garage. 

Keith had crushed (and nearly severed through) two of his fingertips when he tried to catch a falling car part.  Keith refused to go into the house; he might frighten the girls with his grisly injury.  Jeff told him to lie down on the floor of the garage and raise his hand. Then he went inside to get a towel to wrap Keith’s hand and call 911.  Jeff’s distress was reflected by Rosie’s screams.  Jeff held 14-month-old Penny and stood in the entry where he could watch Keith for signs of shock and keep an eye on Rosie in the living room.  As soon as the ambulance pulled away, Jeff returned my call.

Keith's injury provided a diversion of sorts. The next morning a skilled surgeon worked on his broken fingers, sewed him back together with about 25 stitches and a “bionic” fingernail.  He spent two nights in the hospital receiving IV antibiotics.  His fingertips are saved!  Splints, PT and time will heal them. 

Jeff was busy seeing to Keith and it was a couple of days before I told him that the pathologist’s report was available online.  It was another several days before Jeff’s appointment with the kidney specialist, Dr. Pathalpati (“Dr. Pat”).  Jeff wanted me to accompany him so he’d made the appointment when I would be back from Colorado.  We were both anxious to hear Dr. Pat’s interpretation of the results. 

Dr. Pat identified three possible causes for the kidney disease – the cancer itself, the cancer treatment or Graft vs. Host Disease.  Jeff has had some of the idiopathic conditions of Membranous Glomerulopathy – DVT (blood clot in the leg), blood in the urine, high cholesterol (attributable to the immunosuppressant, too).  The kidney damage (thickening of tissue) prevents proper filtering of the blood and “spills” out too much protein.

There is some good news.  1) No kidney cancer.  2) Dr. Pat feels Jeff will respond to an ACE Inhibitor (commonly used for high blood pressure) to treat the disease.  3) Dr. Pat is glad we caught it when we did.  She said, “In another year, it would have been much, much worse.

The tricky part:  Jeff tends toward low blood pressure and the ACE Inhibitor will lower it.  His dosage is the lowest possible, twice a day.  If it makes him dizzy, Dr. Pat may decide to give it only once a day.

The bad news:  1) +1 pill.  2)  More blood and urine tests in 2 and 4 weeks.  3) Another doctor visit in a month. 4) Dr. Pat may order an ANA/ANCA test to further explore the positive lupus result from his labs.

Dr.  Pat instructed Jeff to keep the same dietary restrictions she’d given him last visit (no nuts, shellfish or beef) and added, “No soup unless you make it yourself.”  Salt, then, too.  Okay. 

I was happy to report that Jeff was “willing to make those changes” and was “making good choices."

Jeff snapped, “Well, I am NOT enjoying it!” 

For everything Jeff has gone through, he has every right to be cranky once in a while.  However, he rarely is cranky and his reaction was a little embarrassing.  I calmly responded to his outburst, “I didn’t say you were enjoying it.  I said you were willing to make those changes.  A lot of patients are not.”  I reminded him again that he often enjoys his food, even if he is missing some of his favorites.  Dr. Pat listened but did not say the words Jeff wanted to hear, “Eat anything you want."

Maybe I should expect to see more of Mr. Cranky Pants.  It’s coming up on “Doctor Month”.  In addition to the several visits already scheduled, he knows he needs cataract surgery (his eyes seem to be getting worse, quickly) and he only just finished his dental appointments to take care of cracked teeth (oh, that chemo) when a cheery reminder card arrived with the message, “It’s time for your next dental appointment.”  Jeff has not worked his regular schedule for a few weeks because he has had labs, procedures, doctor visits.  He is frustrated.  I can tolerate his grumpiness.  After all, it’s good that he feels like working.

Prayers for patience, please, and that Jeff sees improvement in his kidney function.  And, you know what?  That fortune cookie offers advice we all should heed, “Enjoy yourself while you can!”